♫ Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Smiles and laughter might just be enough for you to not notice that I stand just out of reach from your hands because of the fear of history repeating.
And that just makes me feel disconnected from everything.
I want to work and not depend on anyone. Work. Family. Friends.
I just want to live. Without all these extra things around.
Petty problems. Restrictions.
I wish I could care less about other people. How they're doing, how they feel, are they happy?
Wish I could make them happy and absorb all the problems they have. But I dont have the right words to say, the right things to do.
Put on a happy face despite everything, hoping that some of that "happiness" rubs off on the people around me.
I feel like I really need the beach right now.
It calms me down and gives me a 'free' feeling.
Lets me forget.
9:36 PM